Blue

I lied under blanket, that
kept me warm, but
it wasn’t enough for my heart , that
is now cold and blue.

Now , I just want my old days back,
when all love songs felt useless
and every sad quotes to me were crap,
just want someone to clear this mess

And, you know that I still search for you
in the voids of my heart,
where my feelings are numb, but you
are gone and your love is now at dearth.

Now , see what have you caused,
made me to spill remorse through poetry
For once I hated to be sad
but now it seems sadness is my only ally.

Now I want to wander
into the closed spaces of loneliness,
and this solace makes me wonder
how can I make myself dauntless.

Maybe, me and you still have a bond,
but now ,in my mind it’s only desolation
for my heart was once vagabond,
and you were it’s impossible destination.

Stars have always interested me,
how they seem so close,
but they are just like you and me
far away from each other, so lost.

Now , see what have you caused,
made me to spill remorse through poetry.
For once I hated to be sad,
but now it seems sadness is my only ally.

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Verses

There she was struggling
with how to comfort her heart
which has been stabbed many times
both from front and back,
but instead of blood gushing,
it was sadness she was soaked with
and depression trying to strangle her
with its gloomy hands
and there was she, alone, struggling to heal that wound.

Struggling to fill that void.

There she was fighting,
for her emotions that
can anytime submerge in
ocean of sorrow,
to be able to give slight
tinge of glee to her soul which
was slowly forgetting
the feeling of happiness.
And she finally found the answer.
The precise way to fight back and to win.

She got her solution
in a pen and an empty paper
which were waiting patiently,
to be touched by her obscurity
waiting for her to bleed her depression out
to repaint her soul,  not with just joy
but with self satisfaction and comfort
which were ceased from her heart.
So, she wrote her gloom down,
scribbled about the glee she needs
scrawled about how a pen made her believe
that we are the author of our life and
we can change it anytime we want
and these verses are the proof.

Fall

I had a fall,

didn’t have someone to call,

for the help i needed.

‘Cause I knew not single soul ever heeded.

 

I trusted the wrong,

but that was not for too long.

At last their masks fell off

and, I left those cheats, for their deception was off.

 

I am damaged

and my mind is utterly dazed

I locked my feelings forever,

for they are meant to be confined and shown never.

 

I am all blue,

and my heart doesn’t have a clue

that, why it is still hurtful

and what made nothingness so painful.

 

But here I am now,

bleeding rhymes somehow

through the lesions that still ache

I know , all this and their ravages will fade.

 

I had a fall,

didn’t have someone to call,

for the help i needed.

‘Cause I knew not a single soul ever heeded.